I love that verse in the Bible that says, "For we know that all things work together for good for those that love God and are called according to His purpose." Sometimes in the midst of things we forget that, don't we? We forget God's promises and allow ourselves to be overwhelmed with circumstances instead of just giving it completely to God before worrying. At least I know I do, anyways.
I was in a horrible mood yesterday for much of the day. Just really upset and disappointed and altogether not myself. It was awful to feel that way and despite wanting to snap out of it not really ever succeeding at that. What a waste of time that was, looking back on it.
To top everything off, last night around 5 o'clock or so Adrienne came down with a 102 degree fever. It was weird... She was mostly herself and had a wonderful appetite but she had this fever. We put her to bed and she slept through the night but woke up again with a fever in the morning. I was, admittedly, distraught. I was so upset that she was going to be sick for Bailey's arrival and unable to be around her new sister. See? I always go to the worst possible scenario. I took her to the walk-in and it looks like she has a UTI. She's now on antibiotics and she should be feeling much better soon. Poor baby! Just think though... I would have felt completely helpless from a hospital bed if Bailey had arrived yesterday. My heart would have been so torn between my children. Being home allowed me to be able to get her the care she needed and love on her properly.
We also had another huge blessing this morning! We have been a one-car-family for quite some time now. We knew that packing all three girls into the back of our little Chevy Malibu would be less than ideal but there were no vans that were meeting our criteria for months on end. We wanted something really cheap with minimal rust an not major issues and we were willing to watch Craig's List like hawks and just be really patient in our search. We prayerfully considered each vehicle and at many times throughout our search we were tempted to go into debt for a really nice van but we didn't feel like that was God's plan for us. Last night around 7, lo and behold, someone posted a Chrysler Town and Country that meet all or our requirements and when we went to see it, it was exactly what had hoped it would be! John's dad is a mechanic and he came with us and declared that it was a sound purchase. It's an older van but the inside is immaculate and it has all leather interior. It's beautiful and we feel very blessed. To top it all off, the guy who sold it to us turned out to be a retired cop and he told John to give him a call if any issues arise with it in the weeks ahead and they'll work together.
That just goes to show me that God really did have a plan... One to proper us, not one to harm us or make our life more difficult, and one that was altogether better than our own. On top of that, we had an extra day with Brooke and Adrienne before adding a new life into the mix.
The hospital has already told me that I might be "bumped" again in the morning but I'm determined to not fall apart over it this time. I will absolutely be disappointed but I'm not going to let circumstances steal my joy anymore and I'm going to let God's promises be my comfort!